I am back, HAPPY and very HAPPY ^^ Just got a job now, I will work at PT Astra International Tbk readers =]

I just need to do my medical check up and when everything’s okay I will start to work on March 1st

Cant wait =]

Now, I am focusing my self to prepare for the med check while eating healthy food is a must here ^^Will go for it around Feb 15 th or 16th …=]

Wish me luck readers

I am typing in front of my laptop while listening radio is one of my hobby here…

I had a great tough day readers…I need to write here and tell you everything

Well, I never thought that Mrs. Tari (Univ. admission) would called me couple of few days, telling me that I should go for Export Leaf Indonesia a.k.a British American Tobacco recruitment @ the University, while I dont like cigarette  and never had any single thought that I would apply for that, but yea, finally I did it…The consideration was simple, just wanna try and get the experience.

I went for it. The first round was short interview with Human Resource Department. I was interviewed by Mr. Agung (Head of HR Department). He is a nice person, very friendly and definitely smart!!! Was so lucky coz on the next day I got a called from Export Leaf Indonesia, let’s call it ELI…

And today I had to do the SHL test, and trust me this one is so difficult for me…I cant do it, and I guess, which is quite sharp prediction that I fail for this…:( Hiks….I feel so lonely readers…I dont wanna complaints anything, but is it wrong if I really wanna get a good job sooner…I dont wanna give up, I do believe that Allah SWT will always guide me and help me thru this and I wont give up!!!!

BISMILLAH…^^

I am trying to write fast now readers…It’s not because I am bored with my best blog, lol…It just…

I need to change…I need to move on now…BIG QUESTION, isnt it?!! Nope!!!  I am not broken heart now, I am just different starting today and now on…

It’s related with my self, my life habit, and my damn activity…

Let me tell you a story here readers…

I had an opportunity to take a test in Semarang (capital city of Central Java, Indonesia) readers…I was there to get a job, as you know that I just graduate from my University and now ‘a job seeker’ is my middle name, lol =p

I am a radio announcer here, and I have to do my job twice a week, in Wednesday and in Friday ^^ I had a test in Semarang, from 8.30 am and unfortunately I had a job in my radio from 11 pm – 1 am…and it’s impossible for me to sleep around 2 (as you know again my readers, I have insomnia since few weeks ago) T_T not nice…. As a result, I woke up late at 6 am and went to Semarang around 6.30 am, got there around 9.30 am, was an hour late T_T bad!!! BAD!!!

I cant say a word now readers..I was lost and felt so stupid now…I couldnt manage my time well…I couldnt make it,it was a BIG FAILURE for me…BIG REGRET!!!

Went home lonely feeling and empty brain…dont wanna make another stupid mistake again…I know I didnt had enough sleep past few days and I was thinking it doesnt matter, but then I know that I was wrong I was dumb when I met that test, felt totally stupid, and couldnt focus well…

Now, I am thinking to continue my part time work (radio announcer) or maybe I’ll just resign from it…Any suggestion readers? What will you do when your life is quite messy when you can’t manage it well, then you lose your good future opportunity….

Should I stay??? or go away??…

Dedicated for someone who’ve been taken away from this world…Rest in peace…

Love you readers…

How was your day? Hope all the great and amazing days for you…=]

It’s 4.43 pm here, just finished cleaning up my room, while I am listening into my fave singer!!! Guess who?!…Alright, I give you the clue, his voice is husky (serak) with some beard on his face, still cute though Anyway, his name is James Morrison ‘DAMN I am so DEEP in LOVE with HIM’. Please dont stop the rain is his new song…speechless now, kwkwkw…

I am in a bad mood now readers, actually I hate to say that. But it’s true…I am confuse now…Think I need my own time to rethinking again and again about my private life. I dont feel comfortable anymore, dont wanna continue my private life with somebody I knew, I dont know, it just I feel it’s not a good thing to continue it, of course I am not a shallow person, when I feel this is bad, then stop!, Nope, not like that =[ I did some analysis (just imagine I am a geek scientist, lol =p), imagine about the future will be between me and him. It’s too complicated and full of barriers, definitely not my type…definitely I am thinking I need to be with someone I do wanna be with, the one who knows exactly about what’s LOVE and how to handle LIFE…I dont wanna ask more and complaints alot now…I just wanna breathe easily and get my clear mind. And I think by enjoying my self for a while will makes a good result…

Anyway, let’s discuss something important here, can we choose a topic for this dark afternoon? Please say yes, lol

Well, if all of you already read my profile, you must know that I am Indonesian and I do proud being a part of this great country. How come? cmon…You must know that we’re rich country with many natural resources, huge amount of population and pollution too, !!!. But thinking about my own country, I feel terrible…How come this great and rich country can stand forever with a thing called ‘POVERTY’. What an unfair condition here for some people who live here… I am not just making up to you, this is true. There is a big differences between the rich people and the poor one, while the rich people can go traveling, fancy dinner, throw some money on fancy stuffs, and be as glamor as they can, but on the other way around, it’s so damn difficult for some people just to eat. When usually we can have our breakfast, lunch, and dinner plus some snacking time and coffee time outside (while this is not that fancy activity actually), but they just cant do that…They have to fight for a thing called ‘how to get food’  TO STAY ALIVE!!! Dear God…I cant continue to tell you about the condition of poor people in my country.. how we really need to help them…Please..we’re not gonna be poor by helping them…

I hope I can get a good job for the next step of my life , can collect good amount of money for me and my family, and for sure I wanna help them…There’s no one in this world said that ‘I dont wanna be rich!’, definitely all of us want that, but how to make our richness useful for others, for our family around the world…and yea, we dont have to wait until we have a big deluxe house with our own pool, 10 sport cars, and 100 maids to start helping people…We can do it NOW!!!…by some simply action…try to visit an orphanage and be with them, spend your time giving care to them, make them happy and let them know that we’re the same, and many other activity we can do for them…They need us…

I hope I can spend more of my time doing that for them…Let’s do it together readers…Help out family, our neighborhood, our lovely world…Let them know How BIG is OUR LOVE!!!

Love you always,

Megha

Finally, I am going to post my daily story (if I can do it, lol) or at least weekly story happened in my great life…

Just an update news, I will get my official graduation on Jan 27th 2010 from my beloved Univ. MM UGM =], I am sure all of you know how does it feel, dont you??? Kinda nervous ‘coz my parents are coming this Saturday, glad to know it. Not just because both of them are coming, but also because of both grandmas are coming aswell. YippiE hay!!!

Finally I have my own internet in my room, just bought a modem and an internet provider. I am quite satisfied with it, the connection is good, especially at night…yea…=] can online anytime readers…

I am in my tired condition now, trying to figure out what’s wrong with me? Found, nothing wrong, I am just fine!!! Had a busy day, got my test at Freeport for GDP. Good company, but If I get that job, means I have to stay for at least 3 years in Papua…WHAT???!!! once again? Papuaaaaaaaaaaa? Yea…cant you hear it, I am yelling out loud…cant imagine if I have to work and stay there readers..just a word ” I am not ready”…sigh…but on the other way around, I am afraid of getting difficulties having a job…I just thinking I am not capable enough..still thinking shallow ya!!! So sorry…

But, anyway, let me tell you about today’s activity readers… I woke up so damn early and went to UPN University, took the first and second test for Freeport GDP. Cant say it was easy…But happy though I am learning again and again about job recruitment, lol =p Finished at around 4 pm, was thinking to do sport ‘jogging’ with my mate, Monic, but once again what unlucky day…=[ the weather was totally worst ‘heavy rain plus thunder storm’ lolol, cant imagine if I went jogging at that day^^

“Knock-knock” really want to eat siomay, hey, dont tell me that you dont know that,  lol. Had that nyummy food…everything was right, till I finally found myself alone in my empty room, doing nothing in front of my computer and start to think about my life…my future..Kinda confused on thinking what will my future be? Dear God…Then I talked with my mate, Vidya, having short conversation about life update. Heard everything was great for her, really HAPPY for that ^^ Her love story is one of the unique stories ever, hehe..glad she can manage it well readers..let’s pray for their love…

Alright, story of the day. I just wanna tell you one thing, lol, am I saying nothing before? haha…Was thinking that at this present time, people are become more and more selfish and individualist. It’s not a joke readers…I went to buy siomay this afternoon, was driving my motorbike there. Everything was fine, till I decided making my motorbike stop, it’s not because I saw a good looking guy (if that was happened), then maybe I rather try to recall his face in my mind, haha..NOPE!!! thats not the point. The point is I decided to stop and waiting for a car to across the street, and can you imagine readers, it took at least 3-5 minutes before that car can across the road…I was SHOCK!!! What the @#$%^!!! How could it be so difficult for us just to wait for few minutes and let other car/vehicle across the road, when we know exactly that’s not easy to across the road readers..I do believe all of us already had those experience, when we want to across the road, but no one cares. They keep running, or even increasing their speed!!! It happened to me 2 weeks ago, when no body cares and being a selfish person on the road!!!

That was a great experience for me not to think about my self. I am totally blessed with many things from God and it feels so GREAT, HAPPY, RELIEVED, and GRATEFUL WHEN WE CAN HELP OTHER PEOPLE AROUND US!!! iT JUST FEEL LIKE I AM IN HEAVEN…

Next time please remember, you’re not the owner of the road…and why do we making our selves feel bad by being a selfish person?…Let’s be more and more kind people ^__^

I am listening into an old song sang by a young man (at that era) with his long hair…lol…^O^ any clue? well…

these are the lyrics “How I am now? Now that we’re together stronger than..I just gotta let you know..It’s your love…cant get enough..’ still dont get it? alright it is ‘GIL’ — still dont know about him, better find his profile on search engine ^^

Need to go to bed now my readers…

I love you ^^

Yang bikin gw sebel beberapa ari ini
Tutururuurur:
1. Temen gw bersikap aneh, sumpe dah!!! Gak bangeth…he acts so weird and annoying…jadi ilfil gw…
2. Ritme tidur agak kacau…
3. Ngerasa banyak joblessnya….sigh….
4. Sebel gak bisa ketemu temen gw yang gw kangenin, Annesophie…:(
5. Sebel punya urusan and masalah gak kelar2…

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhh….

Wanna get busy here….Kerjaan juga gak banyak, buat thesis juga mentok karena up and downnya gw punya semangat…uuuh

Sekarang betah bangeth ni ari, I am on the internet cafe since 9 in the morning and now, it’s already 11.50 a.m. DAMN!!! What happened with me ya? Have no idea…

Sedang menjalani ibadah puasa juga ne..perut memang lapar, namun entahlah sejak pulang dari negara kincir, selera makan jauh berkurang, plus badan terlihat makin kurus….

Banyak opini beredar tentang gw, yang gw stres lah, yang gw pusing karena banyak tugas yang belum kelar, yakni thesis, yang dibilang gw kecanduan mie goreng la (weks!! yang ini sama sekali gak nyambung ya, lol)…

Sebenernya gw lagi ngadepin sebuah masalah pelik yang berhubungan dengan ikatan yang kita sebut dengan nama PERSAHABATAN dan juga soal KETERBUKAAN!. Entah kenapa kemaren dapat pelajaran baru dari yang namanya ikatan berteman…rada kecewa getyu ma sosok seseorang wanita yang udah gw anggap sahabat sejati, tak taunya tidak demikian adanya…uuuh!!! Next time kudu lebih banyak menyaring sosok2 yang hadir ya…

Lagi mumet juga sekarang, banyakan nganggur ama kudu nyelesein sebuah persoalan besar, yang gw sendiri udah ngerasa hopeless bangeth gemana cara nyeleseinnya…uuuh!!

Yang ada sekarang lagi sering2nya berdoa…ama Yang Di Atas, semoga semuanya akan berjalan lancar ya…

Gw berharap bangeth agar semua bisa lancar….

Doain gw ya…=[

Beteeeeee….barusan ngerjain thesis, mentok nyampe ke bagian awal bab II…sigh…

Mana makin sebel lagi kalau inget ntu thesis kudu diulang dari awal, karena emang yang sebelumnya lagi-lagi mentok di tengah jalan….sigh again…

Gak ngerti kenapa, untuk nyelesein thesis kali ini gak semudah saat ngerjain skripsi dulu…hiks…

Pengen deh cepet-cepet kelar…cuman kok bawaannya males mulu ya….

Hmmm…penyakit malas mulai melanda sang biduan manis tiada tara..tararraaam…mulai dah si wanita ini…haha…

Ya udah, tadi otak mulai jenuh ngetik thesis mulu, sekarang boleh dunk melepaskan lelah dengan curhat akan kejadian sehari-hari, haha…

Akhir2 ini, sedang banyak kegiatan ne, mulai dari ketemu temen2 lama yang gak habis-habisnya, hehe..

Aduuh, tiba2 semangat lagi buat thesisnya ne…

Cabs duu dah…hehe =]

Tak akan aku bermuram durja…
Apalagi meratapi nasib…
Bukan Megha namanya…

Bukan aku yang lemah dan tak berdaya…
BUKAN SEORANG MEGHA NAMANYA ITU!!!